It's nice, It's beautiful

Dance Upon The Wind.

by Intimate Knight

I wasn't looking for it, but some how it came, and found me. Before I had a chance to react, it wrapped it's warmth around me. Like a thief in the night, it has come and gone. I have nothing, but that vision to reflect upon. Until chance comes again, I'll let my thoughts dance upon the wind. All day long, in my mind, I walk love's lonely street. Like a tired man that longs to sit, but just can't find a seat. Then, there it was again, up ahead, to light my way. Only to vanish once more, just like all my yesterdays. Until chance comes again, I'll let my thoughts dance upon the wind. I don't know where I'm going, and where I've been isn't much to speak of. I just know my heart is always showing, leading me to some far off love. Just when I give up the fight. Here it comes to make the bad things good, and the wrong things right. Only to leave me lost and lonely again. Drifting away as my thoughts dance upon the wind. It has a name, I think they call it friend.

I'm back! And it's real!

I'm back to my blog, FINALLY!

Let's see when is my last post....

Oh! Is April!

And what month is it now?

June!

Ok, well. So during these 2 blank blog months, things happened. I mean a lot of things happening.

Quarrel--> Settled-->not really settled--> no more F.R.I.E.N.D.S thingy happen.... Doesn't it sounds crazy. I mean, Hello to earth! I thought all these things happen only in kiddos,

as they always like to say, "I WON'T FRIEND YOU ANYMORE!!",

and ended with a "HUH!!!!" But you see, now all of these things are happening in ME! And everything just start with a misunderstanding. A misunderstand that happened between us. At once I was so naive that everything will goes right after awhile. But ended up getting worse. Sounds interesting right?

Maybe that shouldn't be called as naive, we should called it as STUPID!

Because according to SUZANNE'S VERSION DICTIONARY, PUBLISHED AT 2010, naive means you just don't know what's going on when something happens, because you've never been through it.

But stupid means, you already know what's happening, you know what are the outcomes and consequences, but you're just STUPID ENOUGH to step inside it again.

So that's me then. But try to think it another way, the "solidness" of friendship doesn't build in easily, it been through a lot of processes and hardships, so how could you let go off this thing so easily when it is precious as gold to you? That's why I was treating it as a turning point in my life or a beautiful hardship for my friendship. Anyway, it just didn't came up with what I thought. So just forget about it. But honestly, I can't forget, and I can't just get rid of it. It's just difficult.

As time passes, I've finally got 1 conclusion.

Suzanne, You're not stupid, you're not naive, you're just doing the right thing, because you can't just give up friendship easily, you'll need them in life. So when you tried real hard, and nothing can do anymore, it's fine, just let it go, at least there's still memory right there.

I just wanna tell that person that, I won't hate you, angry of you. You're not a stranger to me anyway, but you're not my true best friend anymore. What you've said about you're best friend now to me, I won't tell, but I tell you, sooner or later you will get something if you just don't change.